December 2011
251 posts
I'm just off today
I binged HARD last night. I can’t smoke weed anymore (with exception only for new years) I’m going on ABC starting the first. I’m sick of feeling like a faliure…. maybe 20 40 more pounds will help. My boyfriend and mom keep telling me that I can’t be “SKINNY.” I can be fit, or smaller, but I’m just not the body type for skinny. In my boyfriends words “When you put your arm down, there will still be that crease of skin.” I said “Well, there doesnt have to be….” and he responded with “Yeah, not if youre like 100 pounds…. and those kind of people should be dead anyways.”
bitch I’m 5’11
Im not tryna be 100 pounds.
Just 140, is that so much to ask?
Today my mother said....
that she doesn’t want me being one of “those skinny girls” wtf does that mean? I want to be one of those skinny girls. Uhh.
my blog: ana boot camp (wanting is never enough) →
myfingblog.tumblr.com
She’s my weight loss buddy. FUCKING SWEET.
1: 500 calories
- Fail Soup (35 calories,) 1/4 small avocado (65 calories,) Diet Mountain Dew Code Red (0 calories,) Sugar Free Jello Chocolate Vanilla Swirl Pudding (45 calories,) Sugar Free Fudgesicle (40 calories,) 2 cups steamed broccoli (90 calories,) 1 serving Bunch-a-Crunch (90 calories,)…
MY MOTHER ACTUALLY GOT ME THE DIET PILLS I ASKED FOR.
<3 FUCK YES.
CHRISTMAS TIME MEANS FAMILY TIME.
Which means giant meal time and no cigarette time. FUCKING KILL ME. I WANT A STOGE, NOT A DINNER FOR 12.
